Sometimes, I wonder am I born an A-S-S-H-O-L-E?
I kinda think so man. No particular reason why, but today I feel really lousy for what I''ve DONE.

IM REALLY SORRY BROTHER, what I've done to you today, I really did not expect the outcome to end up in such disastrous manner. My intention was to get you to learn and shut up but I GOT YOU REPRIMANDED FROM DAD instead.

The scolding he received was pretty HARSH, oh well not pretty but it was HARSH. IM SORRY, once again, BIANNE.

I bet it was a scar to him, I remember him saying things like, why are you always siding her and not me? Do you know how I feel AND HE CRIED.

I MADE him cry.. and it is not something that I am proud of at all and I deserve to get shot in the head.


The feeling was AWFUL. I just hate it, the feeling wouldnt go away hence I kept crying. I know, I;M A LOSER, im at FAULT, yet crying, I feel that IM SUCH
A
FIASCO!

I am not even fit be an ELDER SISTER. I CANT TALK WELL, NOR COMMUNICATE WELL WITH HIM. iTS ME , I GUESS, MY PERSONALITIES JUST CLASHES WITH HIS.

so, i went out of house, to the library, I know its lame, but I need a breather. I've got no idea how am I ever gonna get him to listen to me ever again.

I just feel so sorry, the guiltiness just wont go away, I guess he hates me more now. BIANNE, is all I can say.

Sorry.

howdie folks. i dunno, perhaps i just got bored staying at home on FRIDAY. hell, i know, friday... F.R.I.D.A.Y!!!~~~~ BRACE YA SELF.!!!!

we'll write a song that turns out the light/...... this song, we the kings- secret valentine. special meaning uh.

Bet you guys have got to be cluless about it and yes I AINT SHARING FOR I DON FEEL LIKE TYPING IT OUT AT ALL.

i just feel so L.O.S.T . only now do i realise, i've always been the one running, always falling down, scraping ones knees and stuff, inspite Of it, i stood up, ran even harder, heart thumped twice harder than before, to realise there's no helping hand, nor anybody running beside me.

IM IN THIS RUN, ALL A.L.O.N.E .

all these while, after all the running, i admit, im dog tired. unfortunately the hard headed me wouldnt back down, kept forcing myself till i utterly fall flat.

LOUD THUD,it was really loud, that fall. It was both painful, sore and heart wrenching.

Back then i was running blindly, running with my eyes shut, good thing i din crash into the lamps or trees. *laugh it off*

WELL, I REVIVED. A NEW START. ima gonna WALK instead, slow my pace down, check out the scenery, breathe in the fresh air, and not running to something that will never be mine.

learn to take things in my own strive, what's mine is mine, SIMPLE isnt it?

EASIER SAID THAN DONE.

AGREE??

haha! yup, i've decided, ima gonna walk, walk till i see my SUMMIT, my personal summit.

there waiting patiently, with its hands out to hold on to mine this time.

IM KEEPING MY HANDS TO MYSELF THIS TIME. you, SHOULD REACH OUT TO HOLD ONTO MY HANDS AS WELL.

im sincere.

i wanna live my life for you and me.. im paralysed-rebirth by skillet.

i am able to do all things THROUGH HIM

AMEN.

NNothing seeems to be on the right track these days. I apologise for the really blunt usage of wording for this entry. Hell , I just have got to gve it all out.

boy! sometimes i feel like i cant breathe you see. it is so suffocating. I CAN DIE! school's been a bitch! SCREW PRESENTATION! eff presentation!! presentation presentation and more PRESENTATION!!

PRESENTING IN SCHOOL EVERY GOD DAMN DAY IN SCHOOOOL!!!

ftards man! im pissed. i wonder too, who the hell stepped on my tail. shit! i just wanna blow my top so badly you know!! i bet you dont. you cant feel me that is why.

i don wana study no one, now i feel like dying.

IM SORRY, you cant do that, the other half of me telling another half of me off. True indeed, without education, without all the stupid CERTS, where the eff can i go? what can i do? how do i even survive when i could barely even stand on my own now.

SEE HOW BAD IT IS NOW? yeah, but what choice do i have? i aint got no other alternative man. No choice, just own up to life and continuing with everything in life. AS PER NORMAL.

I seriously do not know why am i even studying sometimes.

i dunno, yeah suicidal me is back once again. I WAS JUST KIDDING.

HOW CAN I END MY LIFE JUST LIKE THAT??

god loves me, so stay strong, i'll pull through it. aha!

now, re - reading what i've just typed, felt like an insane person. like i've totally lost my mine or something. Perhaps i really lost my bearings earlier on.

OR

IM really just so sick of my life.

FTW.

stay strong you guys, work ya but out yeah.

WORK LIKE THERE'S NO TMR .

alicia and meeee :]

WAIT UH..

STAY TUNE FOR MORE PICTURES:]

Sometimes, I wonder am I born an A-S-S-H-O-L-E?
I kinda think so man. No particular reason why, but today I feel really lousy for what I''ve DONE.

IM REALLY SORRY BROTHER, what I've done to you today, I really did not expect the outcome to end up in such disastrous manner. My intention was to get you to learn and shut up but I GOT YOU REPRIMANDED FROM DAD instead.

The scolding he received was pretty HARSH, oh well not pretty but it was HARSH. IM SORRY, once again, BIANNE.

I bet it was a scar to him, I remember him saying things like, why are you always siding her and not me? Do you know how I feel AND HE CRIED.

I MADE him cry.. and it is not something that I am proud of at all and I deserve to get shot in the head.


The feeling was AWFUL. I just hate it, the feeling wouldnt go away hence I kept crying. I know, I;M A LOSER, im at FAULT, yet crying, I feel that IM SUCH
A
FIASCO!

I am not even fit be an ELDER SISTER. I CANT TALK WELL, NOR COMMUNICATE WELL WITH HIM. iTS ME , I GUESS, MY PERSONALITIES JUST CLASHES WITH HIS.

so, i went out of house, to the library, I know its lame, but I need a breather. I've got no idea how am I ever gonna get him to listen to me ever again.

I just feel so sorry, the guiltiness just wont go away, I guess he hates me more now. BIANNE, is all I can say.

Sorry.

howdie folks. i dunno, perhaps i just got bored staying at home on FRIDAY. hell, i know, friday... F.R.I.D.A.Y!!!~~~~ BRACE YA SELF.!!!!

we'll write a song that turns out the light/...... this song, we the kings- secret valentine. special meaning uh.

Bet you guys have got to be cluless about it and yes I AINT SHARING FOR I DON FEEL LIKE TYPING IT OUT AT ALL.

i just feel so L.O.S.T . only now do i realise, i've always been the one running, always falling down, scraping ones knees and stuff, inspite Of it, i stood up, ran even harder, heart thumped twice harder than before, to realise there's no helping hand, nor anybody running beside me.

IM IN THIS RUN, ALL A.L.O.N.E .

all these while, after all the running, i admit, im dog tired. unfortunately the hard headed me wouldnt back down, kept forcing myself till i utterly fall flat.

LOUD THUD,it was really loud, that fall. It was both painful, sore and heart wrenching.

Back then i was running blindly, running with my eyes shut, good thing i din crash into the lamps or trees. *laugh it off*

WELL, I REVIVED. A NEW START. ima gonna WALK instead, slow my pace down, check out the scenery, breathe in the fresh air, and not running to something that will never be mine.

learn to take things in my own strive, what's mine is mine, SIMPLE isnt it?

EASIER SAID THAN DONE.

AGREE??

haha! yup, i've decided, ima gonna walk, walk till i see my SUMMIT, my personal summit.

there waiting patiently, with its hands out to hold on to mine this time.

IM KEEPING MY HANDS TO MYSELF THIS TIME. you, SHOULD REACH OUT TO HOLD ONTO MY HANDS AS WELL.

im sincere.

i wanna live my life for you and me.. im paralysed-rebirth by skillet.

i am able to do all things THROUGH HIM

AMEN.

NNothing seeems to be on the right track these days. I apologise for the really blunt usage of wording for this entry. Hell , I just have got to gve it all out.

boy! sometimes i feel like i cant breathe you see. it is so suffocating. I CAN DIE! school's been a bitch! SCREW PRESENTATION! eff presentation!! presentation presentation and more PRESENTATION!!

PRESENTING IN SCHOOL EVERY GOD DAMN DAY IN SCHOOOOL!!!

ftards man! im pissed. i wonder too, who the hell stepped on my tail. shit! i just wanna blow my top so badly you know!! i bet you dont. you cant feel me that is why.

i don wana study no one, now i feel like dying.

IM SORRY, you cant do that, the other half of me telling another half of me off. True indeed, without education, without all the stupid CERTS, where the eff can i go? what can i do? how do i even survive when i could barely even stand on my own now.

SEE HOW BAD IT IS NOW? yeah, but what choice do i have? i aint got no other alternative man. No choice, just own up to life and continuing with everything in life. AS PER NORMAL.

I seriously do not know why am i even studying sometimes.

i dunno, yeah suicidal me is back once again. I WAS JUST KIDDING.

HOW CAN I END MY LIFE JUST LIKE THAT??

god loves me, so stay strong, i'll pull through it. aha!

now, re - reading what i've just typed, felt like an insane person. like i've totally lost my mine or something. Perhaps i really lost my bearings earlier on.

OR

IM really just so sick of my life.

FTW.

stay strong you guys, work ya but out yeah.

WORK LIKE THERE'S NO TMR .

alicia and meeee :]

WAIT UH..

STAY TUNE FOR MORE PICTURES:]